Saturday, December 1, 2012

Invincible



Every once in a while you experience a day that defies logic. When you have an inkling that something different is about to happen. When you keep cranking out rep after rep, set after set with no signs of fatigue or exhaustion. When you loose track of your surroundings and retreat into yourself. When people look at you bewildered, be it the back to back sprints on the treadmill or the 150 kg deadlifts. When you walk around shaking your head to the music inside that only you hear. When a random person you have never spoken to comes out of nowhere to spot you. He sees your hand quiver at that 10th rep of the 30kg dumbbell and feels the need to help you complete it. When you finish the day's workout and just start the one for the next day. When you finish that one and you still keep going. When people start looking at you and smiling. They see you are in that zone. When they make way if you are walking towards the weight rack. When you acknowledge them in return. When you suddenly realise that it has been two and a half hours and you could still keep going for another two. When you leave the gym with more energy than you walked in with.

Every once in a while there comes a day when, as you leave the weight room the instructor calls out to you and says, "Superman! You sure you're finally done for the day? "



Monday, October 15, 2012

A Year and Three Days




It's been quite a while since I wrote anything. A lot has happened but nothing that forced the words out.
Last Friday was one such occasion. On the 11th of October I officially finished a year in Milan. An entire year.
I remember the day I came last year, it was bright and sunny. The sky was blue, the air was crisp, and I had a whole new life to look forward to. A year down the line, the day was dull, cold and depressing. But somewhere within me, the warmth of last year still survived. It permeated through me and made me smile all day.

One year, 365 days, gone in a flash. So many places, so many faces, so many experiences, now just memories. And still a lot more to come. The relativity of time always becomes obvious on days like these. When just a few short weeks ago I was in India, back home for a vacation that went by too quick. A vacation where a life altering event happened, the effects of which I still have completely understood or appreciated or even realized. A vacation that made me long for life back in Milan, just as I longed to go back home when I was here.  When I realized that nothing changes back home and yet everything and everyone was different, including me. That old habits die hard, and new ones can be costly. That culture shock is very real even when returning back home. That India is dark and grey and dirty, but so beautiful that one can't compare. That the connections made in this past year, with people and with places are precious. I missed my friends even though I was away for a few weeks and they missed me back. Such strong bonds made in such a short time. That coming back made me happy but also restless and alone.

A month before that, I was still struggling with the final submissions for school. The last project, the last presentation, the last of school. Finished again with the comfort of education, and thrust unwillingly into reality. Then there was the presentation that kept on going. The sunglasses that we kept working on. That project culminated with a trip to Austria.  A final presentation to the company and a final comment, "It's ready for production."  Something that makes you smile, happy because your work has been worth it, sad because it the end of it.

There was the Venice Architecture Biennale. Something every architect dreams of seeing and being part of. An amazing experience in a beautiful city. One that is now forever stuck in my fancy as one of the most enchanting places I will ever see. A chance encounter with Shekhar Kapoor, that turned around an otherwise dull night. A live quartet, that made my eyes water.
Then comes the most recent trip, Oktoberfest. An experience of a lifetime, and another thing checked off the list. Beer and roller coasters and chocolate and beer and pretzels and beer and giggling drunk through the streets. Where did it end and when did it begin? It's all a haze of colours and faces and beer.

The internship has also begun bringing with it new challenges. The commute to work being the first one.
Being thrown completely at the far end of the pool and realizing that your paddling skills aren't as bad as you thought they were. Understanding that a good environment, good people around and a good attitude can make even supposedly mundane/ unwanted work enjoyable and fun. That "what's for lunch ?" is an ever pertinent question in school or work. It's just that at work you ask it to yourself the night before..... :P

Lastly, the weather in Milan is changing. It is getting to that time of the year when the cold nips at you but just enough to make its presence felt. When the warm clothes start coming out, when the meals start getting bigger. A light drizzle, a cold shower, just a gentle warning, winter is here. 





San Marco



A cool breeze
The black silver water
Writhes.....
Dim and calm,
Soft yellow light washes over,
The white arches aglow

Strings that moan beauty
The music set adrift
Into the air,
Into the soul

Under blue fireflies,
The heart is mesmerized
Full of joy,
And sorrow

A slight chill,
The eyes water
An almost smile,
I wish you were here.......



Friday, May 11, 2012

Alone ?


I am floating, 
Suspended
From strings tied,
To a place unknown
Enveloped by space,
Empty and alone
A world away,
From all I know,
From who I am

A mute spectator,
As my life back home
Rushes on by,
I am absent, 
Unnecessary ?
I feel out of place now,
A world away,
From all I know,
From who I was ?




Saturday, May 5, 2012

Autumn


Its yellowness, Its redness
The trees as if on fire
In these days cold and grey
Their warmth golden
Mellow, 
Like home.....
























I wrote this back in October when I went to Lago Como for a day trip. Just found it in my notebook. Came back to me now somehow and makes a lot of sense too.